I’m having a soul-searching night tonight. Maybe it’s the heat. Maybe it’s being tired after a training for work…
Or, maybe my God, who loves me so deeply, is doing a work in me.
I am realizing that what I thought I like, I really don’t. And, sometimes, I don’t know what I like. LOL
I’m finding myself. I feel the first thing I need to do is journey to my self — my true self — and be truthful in what I am/like/want/don’t want.
I may not know what I like yet, but I am discovering what I don’t want in life, which I feel for now is more important. What I thought I wanted in life, I’m now realizing, that I don’t feel passionate or alive in it. But, I had to venture through it to come out the other end of realizing I don’t want it. That’s powerful to me. I can leave it behind now and move forward asking, “what DO I like?” Not in a selfish or greedy way, but in a soul-satisfying way.
I can breathe. It’s lovely. It’s simple.
May God bless y’all richly tonight. May the Lord of all show us what He created us for in the first place. May we stop wondering and simply trust Him in His infinite goodness. For He IS holy. He knows the plans He has for us. Not to harm us, but to prosper us! (paraphrase of Jeremiah 29.11) He promises that in His word.
~Bohemian Christian Chelle